T e a r s
Saturday, October 1, 2011
-3:20 PM
`-/ Baby if your joking with me.. Please stop..
It's not funny.. it's killing me.
` 1.54am 290911 ,
" it's nt your fault. i just feel like we're drifting. and i'm in love w another girl "'
Baby your words stab me so deeply.
-1:48 PM
`-/ My boyfriend Birthday was awesome.
Held in MBS known as Marina Bay Sands, In the Hotel.
Now his Finally 18 !
` I'm happy his finally a big boy. Love him a lot.
` Did some stuff we never did.
` Bathtub was awesome. View was fantastic.
`Never had the time to go to the Skypark but he promise he would bring me another time.
` He started working in a club since his in a legal age.
It seems like his too busy for me. i miss him .
` His always coming home late, It must be really tiring .
I hope his legs won't hurt. I'm worried.
` His hanging out with his friend in the Club in his free time.
There's a lot of sexy hot pretty girls there. I'm jealous.
` His starting to Drink everyday in the Club.
He might get drunk and do weird stuff. I'm afraid.
` His been partying so much while working that he never texts me anymore.
He fell inlove with someone else. I'm broken inside.
`-/ Baby do you still remember your promises ?
` Cause i can tell you how i feel right now.
I'm hurting. I'm in tears whenever i have the thought of you with another girl. I wonder what she has that i don't. I don't think I'm pretty enough to win you back. I miss your cooking, you said you would cook more for me. I'm not eating anymore, I feel fat cause you left.
I'm putting on a lot of make-up Cause i want to feel pretty since you leaving shows that I'm too ugly. I'm going insane cause i can't stop thinking of you. I'm very cold even though I'm wearing your jacket. I don't want to study cause i lost my motivation. I hate guys cause you showed me how a guy would kill a girl's heart so easily.
` i want you back but if i told you, Wouldn't i be selfish to take you away from the girl you wanted.
` i need you back cause i don't think i can take it any longer being without you.
i kept thinking of suicidal thoughts or cutting myself even if it increases the pain.
` I'm finally breaking down cause maybe I've been too strong for too long.
` Do you remember the rainbow we saw at Illuma, Do you remember you sang '' Like a Rose '' To me? Do you remember how the police actually warned us, Saying i was still a minor and you asked me to faster grow up so you could marry me. Remember where you asked me for stead?
270311 6.09pm at a place we can't enter, at the bushes with my friend who thought you were my boyfriend? Remember we sat somewhere at illuma and we kissed? Remember how silly i felt. Remember how you told me you were nervous when we went home? Remember you kept kissing me non-stop in the Mrt rides. i miss you.
And i can't heal the hole you left in me. I've finally feel alive, my feelings are killing me. Where did you go. Am i too imperfect. Did you like my gifts? i made them with love. Would you ever wear them? What happen if my Mom's cancer passed down to me and i had to suddenly go and never return to Earth. Would you miss me then?
` Baby do you still think of me like the way i think about you.
` Do you still dream of me cause i can't sleep without you.
` Why didn't you pushed them away.. you allowed her to rip half the heart you gave to me outta my chest , you unlocked my heart just to take your heart back and now im bleeding love.
You gave her your heart. Am i too imperfect. I thought i was special.
` Sorry everyone whose reading this.. It's a moment of breakingdown.
` In life you might break down like me but .. Thing is how you bounce back up.
` Cause in everyone of you, you need a center board that lets you bounce back up to your feet.
` Like a ship, without it's center board, It won't be able to float and would just topple down.
` Baby , you killed me inside.
` Would you bring me back to life?
Sunday, September 18, 2011
-2:21 AM
`-/ I just realized the timing on my blog is so wrong.
` Ask me a million questions as though I'm a killer.
A killer you seek, a killer i shall become.
Not knowing the killer you seek was you yourself.
Hidden so well ; A killer of hearts - A killer of Love.
` We all bare the burdens of a thousand things.
Now tell me how many more can you take.
Will you drop on the floor, will you bare the consequences ?
Or will you fall and stand up again .
` We all have limits.
Well we even exceeded them just so you know.
No, We're not monsters for being different but unique for being weird.
Every petal that drops from this fine Rose shows that not everything will stay fresh .
We will one day fall of a beautiful flower too. Just when will that time be .
Saturday, September 17, 2011
-1:00 PM
`-/ Well , Hey guys, I've moved here (:
` And if you can't read what the Picture of the bunny , It says " I am just a toy after all "
and yeah, The font is the reason but it's not me who created this so yeah, No hate comments.
` Well there's 2 more day to my Boyfriends birthday.
` I had planned a surprise party which is now not a surprise since i told you all but oh'well.
` I'm planning on printing " The BEST Boyfriend " Shirt for him with his name at the back.
` I Know i haven't been updating recently but i promise i will now. Well i don't even know if anyone really reads my blog so yeah. You can just tell me anything you need to know, Anything you want me to post about.
` Here's a question to all of you reading !
` If your lover's birthday is coming up, What would you do for him/her? (:
`-/ Gentle Tip : Do not give up your life for someone who has left you.
Cause you can do so much better.
