T e a r s
Saturday, October 1, 2011
-1:48 PM
`-/ My boyfriend Birthday was awesome.
Held in MBS known as Marina Bay Sands, In the Hotel.
Now his Finally 18 !
` I'm happy his finally a big boy. Love him a lot.
` Did some stuff we never did.
` Bathtub was awesome. View was fantastic.
`Never had the time to go to the Skypark but he promise he would bring me another time.
` He started working in a club since his in a legal age.
It seems like his too busy for me. i miss him .
` His always coming home late, It must be really tiring .
I hope his legs won't hurt. I'm worried.
` His hanging out with his friend in the Club in his free time.
There's a lot of sexy hot pretty girls there. I'm jealous.
` His starting to Drink everyday in the Club.
He might get drunk and do weird stuff. I'm afraid.
` His been partying so much while working that he never texts me anymore.
He fell inlove with someone else. I'm broken inside.
`-/ Baby do you still remember your promises ?
` Cause i can tell you how i feel right now.
I'm hurting. I'm in tears whenever i have the thought of you with another girl. I wonder what she has that i don't. I don't think I'm pretty enough to win you back. I miss your cooking, you said you would cook more for me. I'm not eating anymore, I feel fat cause you left.
I'm putting on a lot of make-up Cause i want to feel pretty since you leaving shows that I'm too ugly. I'm going insane cause i can't stop thinking of you. I'm very cold even though I'm wearing your jacket. I don't want to study cause i lost my motivation. I hate guys cause you showed me how a guy would kill a girl's heart so easily.
` i want you back but if i told you, Wouldn't i be selfish to take you away from the girl you wanted.
` i need you back cause i don't think i can take it any longer being without you.
i kept thinking of suicidal thoughts or cutting myself even if it increases the pain.
` I'm finally breaking down cause maybe I've been too strong for too long.
` Do you remember the rainbow we saw at Illuma, Do you remember you sang '' Like a Rose '' To me? Do you remember how the police actually warned us, Saying i was still a minor and you asked me to faster grow up so you could marry me. Remember where you asked me for stead?
270311 6.09pm at a place we can't enter, at the bushes with my friend who thought you were my boyfriend? Remember we sat somewhere at illuma and we kissed? Remember how silly i felt. Remember how you told me you were nervous when we went home? Remember you kept kissing me non-stop in the Mrt rides. i miss you.
And i can't heal the hole you left in me. I've finally feel alive, my feelings are killing me. Where did you go. Am i too imperfect. Did you like my gifts? i made them with love. Would you ever wear them? What happen if my Mom's cancer passed down to me and i had to suddenly go and never return to Earth. Would you miss me then?
` Baby do you still think of me like the way i think about you.
` Do you still dream of me cause i can't sleep without you.
` Why didn't you pushed them away.. you allowed her to rip half the heart you gave to me outta my chest , you unlocked my heart just to take your heart back and now im bleeding love.
You gave her your heart. Am i too imperfect. I thought i was special.
` Sorry everyone whose reading this.. It's a moment of breakingdown.
` In life you might break down like me but .. Thing is how you bounce back up.
` Cause in everyone of you, you need a center board that lets you bounce back up to your feet.
` Like a ship, without it's center board, It won't be able to float and would just topple down.
` Baby , you killed me inside.
` Would you bring me back to life?
